I amaze myself

Just did the 6 km walk : took 1 hr and 18 mins. I did it and that was my goal. I had to take a pit stop at the 2 km mark so will have to work on that one, "the 20 min mark". feel really great esp for someone who has not done any exercise for years, apart from normal daily activities. For the the rest of the week it is 3 x 5km walks which I have mapped out with the 2 km near a loo!!!.
Rellies are up for the weekend = they went to see a show in town last night.
As it seems it is going to be sunny and not raining I might get into the vege garden to check the brocolli to see if there is enough to freeze. Otherwise time to get moving on the rest of the day.

Getting focussed

Since the weekend I have not done any walking or swimming. I got stuck into my sewing and once I get that between my teeth, I am oblivious to anything else in the house and my life for that matter. This morning I woke up and I realised I really do miss the walk and the swim. I have/had written out the programme of what I wanted to achieve this week so I will "restart"/continue from todays programme. If I want to do this 1/2 marathon I am going to have to stick to the walking and the swimming. The main reason for the restart is I can see a change in my figure already and earlier this week I tried on a top that is a size smaller than what I wear and it fitted and looked nice on me and felt nice and comfortable. [ gee that is some sentence].
I must also write every day to account for what I have done. Now to get on with the day. Wake up WG, get him off to tech, get going for a swim, dishes, laundry, tidy rooms, paper work for Dad,
work out a timetable/schedule so I do not get upset over the pool opening later. How stupid is that. I let that get to me instead of getting of my chuff and doing something.

Darn this programme. The other cat we had jumped on the keyboard and ever since then it has affected some letters which causes the cursor to move elsewhere and sometimes whole paragraphs of work to disappear= just like now. And I can not remember what I wrote. One day I will get a new laptop with a new programme.

With Dad being the way he is I can see this going on for a long time and I will need to get some sort of order into my life so everything gets done and nothing is let to slide. I need more structure than I have at the moment, like making time for my patchwork/sewing and keeping the garden going. Also I can use this time to start on the changes I want in the house by getting the little things fixed up that will not be affected by the large alterations that will come later.

Any way on with the day.

weekend again

Tis the weekend I feel stink because I forgot the pool doesn't open until 9 am and that really threw me. I am an early bird and like to get going on my walks and swim by 7 am: as it is light then, it is still early when I get back. If I go now I feel it cuts into my day too much and then I feel cheated. Mind you I don;t really feel like doing anything today as I have enough to do catching up with stuff at home. Helping Dad with his stuff takes it out of me and a lot out of my day so I guess I can have a day when I catch up. I feel so stink about the pool and my attitude about the pool, I have just had 4 slices of toast with butter and honey and now wrecked my programme for the weekend. But then again out of 21 meals one has in a week, this can be the one odd meal for the week, so I shouldn't feel too bad. Since I started this weight loss since Levin earlier this month this would be the first "digression" . In that case make time for a brisk walk later today if you feel that guilty Carol.
Mind you last week I went to the pool later in the day and that was quite nice, esp as they had things out for the kids and it was great watching them having fun.
For the Rest of the Week I will do
Sunday 5 kms walk as per the 1/2 marathon training programme
Monday swim
Tuesday 4 kms walk that will be 2 x 2km walk in the park
Wednesday swim
Thursday 4 kms walk like Tuesday
Friday swim
Saturday 6 km walk
And if I stick to SMD lifestyle food plan I should have a good week.
and I also have to remember my family it supporting me, as they tell me how impressed they are and good on me for doing this especially for myself and no one else.
ok back to the house work and sewing

Walking makes life easier

Well not while you are walking and swimming. Yesterday I did both, 3kms walk and at least 20 mins aqua jogging and then 6 lengths of trying to do breaststroke in the pool. What amazes me still that I think: oh well that is all my energy used up for the day but in actual fact it is the opposite. It is like I make more energy and life is much easier.
This morning I will only do the 3km walk as I have appt with the optician and then the lawyers for Dad's stuff in the afternoon. Some where in between I need to get into the garden to clear the weeds and plant more seedlings. There is also a pile of mending for me to do and if the weather does break [it has been lovely and fine for the past few days] I can do that then.
ok that is all for now


just come home from the walk and one thing i have to work on is finding the loo stops!!!! mmmmmmm

Sorting Out.

Still trying to work out this blog = one day I will get there
Yesterday I tried to get to the pool to have a swim but Dad took longer than I realised and ended up helping Mum doing some pruning in her garden.
So even though it is still early in the morning I can start afresh and do the 3km walk today. Tomorrow I can just swim and Friday I will do the other 3km walk. Using Map my walk to sort out distances. Some of my walks I will just do twice or three times or what ever.

Updating

i tried yesterday to update but somehow it did not save. oh well i can do it now.

A rest day

rest day and it was great. had to go to course and then to Dad's.
I really have felt that I had done too much over the past two days but this evening after resting I feel really good. Am ready to do the next level of more work, i can see now that one level is easy when it is achieved and the next level is enticing.

Was looking for this entry not realising it had been saved as a draft as opposed to an entry

a test for me

it is raining at the moment and that will test me as i hate going out in the rain because i wear glasses and the rain on them is irritating. but with the rain it will be warmer. will wait until it is light before going out. it is 6 am and still dark. if it is too wet i will go for a swim instead so either way i will get wet. will try to do a bit more housework today = need to have a good tidy up.

weight and patchwork

the two topics i want to blog about.
the pool doesn't open until 9 am so have a bit of time to wait = and I have to wake W.
the patchwork i have done is finish all the blocks of the Majestic Mountains - just have to decide what I want to do with them. Make them into a top for community quilts or make a quilt for me.
read an article yesterday that push ups and sit ups are not done as exercise is concentrated on the heart and fitness side of things but strength is losing out. As I will be more on my own as the family grows up I will have private time space to do exercise in the house. Only a few at a time but I have all day to do lots of little bits.
might think about doing this = incorporate into my new lifestyle

later in the day
didn't make it to the pool, sat watching tv and surfing the net. a real blobbed out day and now i am feeling it. tomorrow i will have to get back on track, going to clean Dad's place and do some more in the garden

early morning

I went to bed early last night as I had a real lazy day and now I am wide awake. Have been watching TV about the earthquake and cyclone. Very sad.
Getting up early is normal for me but sometimes I wish it was not so early. lol. With the laptop having wireless now I can move around the house easier and watch TV at the same time. I have sewing I could do, but that is work and I am not in the mood for that just yet.
Getting back to my weight issues I guess I should have a food diary also. I am trying to follow the SMD but it is the sweet after dinner that I crave. I have worked out the 4pm issue. Start eating some of the dinner vege ie carrot/celery [which I will never take as a snack - that is an awful interpretation, but as a vege or part of dinner that I can do.] It is this early morning that I like milky coffee which I know is not in the "diet" but for me is a lifestyle thing.

I have worked out I have to change to this new lifestyle = i can never go back to my old life. This is one of the issues that stop me from growing forward. I really have to accept this new change even knowing that Mum and Sis do not really know what I am going through. They haven't lost a spouse yet. It is realising I am doing this for me and no-one else - I do not have my support partner-. It is still this selfish feeling and the taking time away from other ppl that I still feel guilty about. It is the finding the blocks of time where I am free and not needed that makes it easy to go to the pool and spend time there knowing I do not have to rush back to the boys. This makes it easier to focus on what I am doing and I guess - looking to the future - I will be able to do more. I would like to get back to a gym with the weights but I want to lose some of this fat and change my body shape before I go. I am uncomfortable with the shape I do have. I don't feel happy with it. I am getting more truthful about how things are really like.
as this is another day I should have a plan for today = ring for appt for bank, check on phone for Dad, sewing, start mending, pick up fruit from under tree, Get outside even if it is cold.
I hate the cold. I am not a winter person and soon it will be winter and I have 3 months to get through. what is worse I will have to watch the heating as I will not have the $$$ to have the full heating that I would like to have.

I intend to win against the weight

i guess one comes to a time in their life and they say enough is enough. mine is with my weight.
i am overweight and not fit. i have to change and i need a place to be accountable.
i have started to go to the pool every day the pool is free and has warm water, i am not going to school this term so i want to use this time to get started on this new adventure.