Meanderings

Am sitting here trying to think of an interesting start but nothing comes to mind so I won't bother.
Yesterday tried to do th 5km walk but only got as far as about 3.7ish kms. It really need to work on the morning ablutions as it is not fun getting caught out. Got home in time, and as that broke my stride I did not go and finish the walk. I was supposed to go swimming today but the Course is finishing today and I have rubbish to put out and the dishes to do, I will treat myself to a break.
Cat has just come in and is helping with this writing - lol.

One observation about yesterday is ....I made no contact with anyone, I was totally on my own and I enjoyed every minute of it. I realised I do not feel any guilt over doing this exercise and taking time out for me. I am making ME the priority for the rest of this year.
This morning I woke with the thought I do not want to stay in bed any longer I want to get up and live life. I haven't felt this for many years - since Bill died at least - It is almost like the old me coming back. Already this walking and swimming is changing me, it is giving me time to think and feel about how I think and feel about my world. To me, this is quite a watershed, as I have always put others first, and finding out that it is ok to think of me first, is quite uplifting. I really feel I have moved forward in my life with this realisation, and now that I have realised this I intend to keep the momentum up.

For many decades I have kept journals and diaries, and I have been meaning to go through them and fill them out with full descriptions of the events that happened, I think I will make this a goal to start this project this year. I really must put my full list of goals up on this page so I can keep track of them all